Expressionism

Been trying to express for awhile now how i feel, but nobodies there to listen
With the million of thoughts running through my head, shouldn't there be one person to hear what I gotta say
Been told before to be open, what i got to say means something. What happens when the audience just doesn't care?
who would keep going? Putting pen to paper every night still hoping their words could impact someone else.
Hoping anybody will take consideration that you're more than a junkie
That I've got something to say

No meds, no sleep, new shit

All your feelings come crashing back
Lost control over the emotions
Don't remember how to handle it all
Got so used to being numb
That the void got so comfortable
You'll do anything to have it back
To get to slip back just one more time
Falling under its normality
It's a wicked romance of want and freedom
Where you're both cat and mouse
Chasing what you want and hiding from what you need

Slow fall down

How many times have we had the same fight?
Throwing words around as if were throwing punches
Lets see who can hurt the other more 'You did this, you did that,
why the fuck can't you be what I want'
I haven't changed for me, what makes
You think imma change for you?
Been down this road before 'I'm sorry, I
Love you' bitch, don't try it, it's not going to work.
Told you I don't need you to hold me down,
I'm only letting you.
I like us together when were not throwing blows
Just need to get off this petty guilt trip
Because soon or later 'I love you' is
going to start sounding like 'fuck you'
Cause baby, you know, destruction runs deep in my veins.

Before the Submit

Don't stop to change, don't stop to breath

Hold your own and hold on tight

Forgot the time, forget the place

Life in this lane isn't a game

Come ups and come downs

Regret will be close behind

Broken promises and cheating hearts

Time to face who you are

Empty bags and broken dreams

Cigarette burns from cheating death

Make a choice

Make it fast