How I began......

It started with a single sentence, one phrase that changed everything about my life. I can't think of one aspect of my life that remained the same. The way I thought, any morals I was taught, my speech, how I slept, what I ate, even the way I took a shit.
"Do you wanna try heroin?"

When were kids were told drugs are bad, when were innocent kids who haven't seen the horrors of the world yet. A kids mind cant possibly wrap itself around how bad drugs are, what drugs actually take away from you. No, kids are taught the terrible health issues that come with drugs. Sure that's bad, but nothing compared to the actual lifestyle drug use brings.

Eventually we start to grow up. Us as kids begin to see our place. What we were dealt. Are we going to have that life, the one we all secretly hope for. Friends. Money. Looks. Everything that society tells you want. Or are you going to be life's bitch? When you discover nothing will come easy, everything you do will be a struggle and still nothing will go right. Discovering how cruel people are, and you're just prey.

Early on we find out there is an escape. A solid way to take us out of our skin, out of our body. So we forget what we were told, forget "drugs are bad" and experimentation begins. Rarely do we just jump into into the dope game. Weed and drinking usually come first. Then we find out,we need more of an escape, we still hate the way life was dealt. Enter in pills. That narcotic high, that blissful cloud of hope.

Lets say we use these pills for awhile. We have no idea that our body is about to betray us, just like the world around us. An opiates bitch. That is what we are. See, now we need these pills. Not to escape, no, we need them to be normal now, or we are sick, and we can't let anyone see us this way, so use more.At this point we are sicker then we could ever imagine.

Who knew those tiny little pills would cost you so much? The money is gone and if we were smart this is the moment we would have went, "fuck this, I'm not going to be a drug addict," how I wish this is what I would have said. I had someone ask if I wanted to try dope. Dope was cheaper and got you more high. I hated myself so much that I didn't care, because dope brought me love, brought me an empty mind. Dope brought me everything I never had and everything I thought I was looking for, but also never wanted. All I ever really wanted was to be happy, I took the easy way out.